As I’m sitting here just looking back on my life I realized that I have so many moments in my life that I wish I could just go back and do it all over again. Some moments in particular is telling people how I really feel. It may seem like a small thing to some but for me if I was more honest with the way I felt my life could have been so much different now. Fear is so crippling. Fear holds you back. Fear is your own worst enemy. I was so afraid to tell people how I felt. Because of this fear there were so many missed opportunities. I also think pride had a lot to do with it. When I look back on my life I now see how I let my fear and pride get the better of me. I let fear take over my life and it definitely changed the course of my life. It’s so weird how sometimes we put our lives on hold, we put the way we feel aside or we let the thing in life we want the most slip right through our fingers just because we are afraid that the people around us wouldn’t approve or they would judge. Fear damn you!!!
Is it wrong of me to still not really have my mind made up about things I want to do when it comes to careers,life, love, etc. I sometimes….. well I scare my self all the time because I feel as though I may never figure out what I really want or who I am as a person. Life is going by so quickly and I feel like I am the only one out of everyone I know who doesn’t have things figured out. I feel stuck and all the things I really want to do seems so unrealistic because I let money be a factor when it comes to me making decisions about everything in my life. I need some hardcore advice, a plane ticket to CA or England, a kick ass playlist, my drivers license and God protection because I am so ready to bust outta here and go on an adventure.